Ladies and Gentleman……May I Have Your Attention Please

Our appointment with Dr Sweeney went well on Wednesday. I’m healing just fine and pretty much back to normal after surgery. Everything is in place as it should be. The shot wasn’t too bad. I expected to be sore afterwards but, no pain at all.

The best news however came when the ultrasound tech asked us if we wanted to know what we were having. We said yes in unison and she informed us that she would try but at 16 weeks, it’s still pretty early. First things first, she needed to check all of babies limbs, organs, etc to see how they were working. It’s amazing to me that you can actually see their kidneys working! Modern medicine is amazing! After we were reassured that baby was measuring on target and at this point all systems were working as they should, she began the search.

It didn’t take long, as baby was very cooperative. And there it was.

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I believe Chris’s exact words were “I see it”! We began to laugh and then the tears started to flow. I looked over to see Chris’s eyes all red and filled with tears. He got up and kissed me and I could just see how incredibly happy and filled with joy he was in that moment. I could sit here and say it didn’t matter boy or girl, we just want a healthy baby. And that is true. The baby’s health is most important.

However, rewind to 2 years ago, finding out we were having a boy, preparing for him, all the hopes and dreams you start to think of for him, all taken away in a blink of an eye. So yeah, when they told us that this baby is a boy, it was like a second chance. My husband was going to get to make memories like all dads dream of making with their son and have his last name carried on. And by no means is this baby boy a replacement to Cameron. That could never happen. Cameron’s legacy is so strong and powerful in my heart and Chris’s heart it could never be replaced. Everything that I do and all that I am today is because of our little angel, positivity, prayer, and a higher power. Cameron changed our world and something in me says he had a hand in bringing us his little brother. I just feel blessed.

This baby is more than just our little boy. He’s our miracle. He’s hope, love, joy, strength. He is life. Many of you may not understand what I mean. But if you’ve ever stared death in the face and ultimately realized or grasped what it means to be alive, you may understand. A year ago this Monday, I was given that horrible diagnosis of CANCER. The scariest time of my life. So many aspects of my life and future hung in the balance. So to be here where we are today, blessed with a baby, the most precious gift life could give. Wow! I know that I will never take any of this for granted because I am fully aware of how fast it can all disappear. For now, I will live in this moment of happiness and the joy of being pregnant.

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Surgery #…..Oh Hell I Lost Count

Up and at em at 5 a.m. I don’t remember the last time I was up and it was still dark outside. Been awhile. We are about to head out to the hospital but just wanted to get this out first. Feeling a little nervous but mostly because I will be awake for this surgery. And I’ve never been awake for surgery before. So I guess I’m just asking for some prayers today for a smooth surgery and speedy recovery. I’ve got incredible faith in my doctors and know I’m in good hands. So off we go! More to come in a few days!

QUICK UPDATE:

Surgery went very well! I can definitely say that having a spinal and being awake for surgery is a new and very strange experience! But not as scary as I thought it might be. Even got to see our little wiggle worm after the procedure was finished. He/she was just as relaxed as could be. I’m now home resting and relaxing. Looks like I will be rendezvousing with Netflix for the next few days! Next up, our follow up with Dr Sweeney at the Center for Maternal and Fetal Medicine on Wednesday. I will begin my weekly progesterone shots and we may have the big gender reveal!!!!! Stay tuned!

And thank you all for your continued prayers and well wishes! Xoxoxo

Preop Appointment

Nothing very exciting today. Well, I mean its always exciting for me to hear our baby’s heartbeat! But nothing new really to report. Things are going well and we are now out of the first trimester. 🙂 YEAH! But of course we are not out of the woods. My Nuchal Translucency screening tests all came back negative so that was good news. My preop appointment today was just to go over the cerclage procedure and answer any questions I may have. Of course there is risk involved. But I know what the alternative is and that’s a road I would rather not travel again. So I will be welcoming any and all prayers and positive vibes for my surgery on the 19th of this month. The procedure itself takes about 15 minutes and then I will recover in labor and delivery for about 3 hours so they can monitor me and make sure my uterus stays quiet. Lol Sounds funny I know. Then rest for 2-3 days to recoup and hopefully back to normal.

So that’s that really. Just enjoying each day. Here’s the pic I received today. May not appear like much. But that’s our baby’s strong heart and if you look real close you can see his/her spine as baby’s back is facing out. 🙂

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